Reader Response

Remember when I created a blog email and endlessly solicited for feedback? 😀 Well, some of my friends  came through and I’m long overdue to share their words. Needless to say, their emails warmed my heart. Every writer enjoys validation that a message affects readers enough to make them get up and respond, LOL. More than that, though, they cared enough to write back, so this is me saying “Thank you” one more time. :) For those who can’t leave comments below, feel free to email findotitihere@hotmail.com instead.

Steve shared my pain in his reaction to Was I Wrong?:

I have read this over, and over and still not sure the message i should take from it, personally.This may be because i am in the same boat with you, and the paddles are not working.I can't say goodbye, and mean it or try harder, and not feel the hurt from the past.It is a scary delimma to be caught in between my emotions.I have a million questions for no one, but me and the consistent is," why can't i hate you right or love you right?"  I guess wat i have realised is that the power to 'forgive and forget' is divine as well as the will to love, and be loved.It hungers me to love again and let myself out there to be loved again (genuinely this time), but what guarantee do i have that it wouldn't be another version of the same movie.

A friend who’d rather remain anonymous gushed over Have Faith:

Dear Otiti,    
         This is a very wonderful, educative and inspiring message. I love the way you select your diction in this particular passage which captures your readers and drops the clear message. Your message has really inspired me and given me strength towards  the pursuit of certain ventures i have dropped due to lack of faith in God and my own ability. I can only imagine how many you have inspired and given hope with these heavenly inspired blogs. Please keep using your talents to inspire and challenge others and most importantly also apply these messages to your life. I must admit this is one of the most beautiful pieces I have read in ages. Remain blessed.

Ese also had this to say after reading the same post:

Miss *woot woot* awesome stuff. Reading this took me on a journey. I absolutely love it. It's definitely worth reading more than once and maybe sharing too *winks*



In Memory of Steve Jobs

Steve Jobs was the foundation of Apple. He made it a household name in business, entertainment, and technology. It’s beyond tragic that he’s passed; I have tears in my eyes for a man I never knew. Just goes to show how special he was to us.

Steve Jobs – innovator, dreamer, legend. Other news sources call him a “visionary” and “creative genius”. He was indeed a great man and the world just lost an icon in more fields than one.

Below are some links that hint at his legacy and impact as an individual.

http://www.apple.com/stevejobs/ Apple’s official statement “Remembering Steve Jobs”.

http://www.ted.com/talks/steve_jobs_how_to_live_before_you_die.html A video of his commencement speech at Stanford University. The talk is called “How to live before you die”.

http://www.latimes.com/business/la-fi-jobs-quotes-20111006,0,1557833.story “Reactions to Steve Jobs’ death” by Tiffany Hsu and Jessica Guynn for the Los Angeles Times.

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/steve-jobs-from-humble-start-to-game-changer-2366290.html An article in The Independent that summarises his time with Apple.

http://www.macstories.net/roundups/inspirational-steve-jobs-quotes/ “A Collection of 60 Inspirational Steve Jobs Quotes About Life, Design and Apple” by Federico Viticci

RIP Steve Jobs. You changed our world.

We Remember

Today, the tenth anniversary of 9/11, we remember those who were taken from us far too soon.
We remember the spirit of unity and brotherhood that helped us through the shock and tragedy.
We remember that human life is the most precious resource this world has to offer.
We remember that terrorism is a heinous crime against humanity and we must stand against its evil.
We remember to show our loved ones how we feel because we never know what lies ahead.
We remember to shun wickedness and embrace kindness instead because there’s already far too much suffering.
We remember to comfort those in mourning because we will all experience that pain at some point.
We remember those who didn’t have the chance for a last goodbye, who didn’t even know they’d never come back home.
We remember those whose lives changed forever.
We remember that dark day in history, and we pray it never happens again.
Today, we remember.

Back to Base

Hey, people. Just a quick post to say I’m back in Germany now so my posts should be more frequent. For those who didn’t know, I spent the summer in Nigeria and can I just say, it was truly an experience. Feels good to be home again, woot woot!!

Well, not much else to say right now. Still jet-lagged and out of sync with my environment, LOL. More on the Identity Series once I have my act back together. Later, folks.

Blog Email

Greetings. I’m proud to announce that The Musings of My Soul just got a live inbox! Send your thoughts and comments to findotitihere@hotmail.com and Luscious Curves (that’s me) will get back to you ASAP. I’d love to hear from all my readers, especially since most people seem to have trouble leaving comments for each post. Your comments may appear here, but I’ll be sure to clear it with you before using them. Anonymity is guaranteed for those who wish it, LOL.
So! Let’s get the feedback started, people. *rubbing hands in glee* This should be fun. 😀

Update

Hey, y’all. It’s been a while since I wrote anything on here. I do miss it. I’m currently out of the country and there’s a problem with my laptop, so I can’t write as often or as much as I’d like. :(  Bummer.

Anyway. Just thought I’d do something so you know my blog is still active. My word pool needs nourishment ASAP. See you when that happens. :)

Acceptance

Knowledge is power. Acceptance is freeing. No matter how much something hurts or how bad you feel about a certain person and/or situation, acceptance lets you make peace with yourself.

When you realise that there is absolutely nothing to be done, you stop waiting in vain. You shake off ghosts and shadows from the past, lay to rest the hope of breathing life into wholly dead ties. I’m not saying accept negativity or anything, I’m just saying acknowledge the truth and deal with it. Face it, absorb it, keep moving forward.

There are times to fight, to retreat, to hold on, and then, to just let go. The key is to know the difference and act accordingly. Make room for those willing, waiting, wanting to make room for you too.

Run, Lioness

Run, lioness, run and rescue your cub
He is weak and hurt, felled by the club

Search, lioness, search for him now
Sweat hangs heavy on his fur and brow

Look, lioness, look at his skin
The gold is fading from your kin

Weep, lioness, weep for him now
He is lost in time, you cannot save him now.

Come, Little One

Come, little one, come sit at my side
Learn of love and virtue, wisdom and pride

Listen, young one, listen to my words
Of men and kings in battles with swords

Hark, little one, hear what I say
Shun folly ere it leads you astray

Stay, young one, stay here with me
I am old now and wish for company.

Was I Wrong?

Was I wrong to try, to believe? Was it folly to think we could ever be? I sit here and wonder if I’m the only one wanting what could, what should have been. We were fated for each other! Well, that’s what I thought for many years. Looks like I was wrong about that too. *Shrug* So what else is new?

I tell myself I’m not waiting anymore, try to accept that it’s time to move on and forget you, but I can’t do it. I just can’t. You’re always there. It doesn’t matter where I run or how hard I try to ignore it. You are right there under my skin: waiting, biding your time, safe in the knowledge that I can’t escape you. Or can I?

It’s just so frustrating not knowing how you really feel. I can only ask so many times, I mean it’s not like I ever get a clear answer or feel any better. Maybe it amuses you to treat me like a plaything, I don’t know. We’ve become strangers to one another and I’m struggling to adjust. How’d that even happen, anyway?

I ache for you. I long for you. But you’re poison in my system and I must, I must be free from this longing. I must be free of this pain. It would be easier if I could hate you but I can’t even do that. I can only love you from afar. That’s not enough anymore. So, what now?

I have done my time. I am tired. There’s no point, no reason to nurse hope. You have made your choice, now I must make mine. Once again, I’ll try to say goodbye. I’ll try to live as though a part of me isn’t missing, as if the void within doesn’t exist.

Anyway. My struggle continues. I don’t expect you to notice or care that I’m gone, don’t even expect you to want me. That time is past. Pity, really.