Of Cage-Rattlers + Helping Hands

4 weeks ago, I decided to go professional with my blog. My first admission here took a lot to tap out.

I sat down with my journal and teased out my personal brand of magic/my calling, my contribution to humanity, and what I could do to set the world on fire. I felt light and free and clear about my life’s purpose. Cue hallelujah chorus and angels rejoicing.

Then I woke up the next day and the fear began: what if I fail? What can I possibly offer the world that isn’t already out there? HOW will I get started?

Luckily, helpful souls restored my faith in myself pretty damn quick.

The fabulous Nikki Groom calmed my fears when I sent her frantic messages on Twitter and shared her story with me through email; turned out I wasn’t crazy and my emotional roller-coaster was totally normal after such a momentous (and public!) declaration. Phew.

John Kowalski added me on Skype, talked me through the uncertainties, and even shared his own personal word map and infographic that laid the foundation for his heart-centred approach to entrepreneurship. Amazing or what, right?

THEN the incredibly wise and lovably ass-kicking Sandi Amorim rattled my cage during a complimentary 30-minute call and freed my soul to reveal more of herself in my blog. This led to The Bonds Between You and I because Sandi emphasised the importance of being real and true to yourself, of letting out your story complete with emotion, authenticity, and purpose. So I did, and more of you connected with me because of it. To those who commented here and on my Facebook page, I thank you.

But I didn’t start this post to tell you all about my journey and leave it at that. I started it to emphasise the power of declaration.

Things fall into place when you get clear on what you want, why you want it, and what you’re willing to do to get it. Opportunities start flooding in to test your resolve, to see how committed you really are to the process.

How badly do you want that dream? Continue reading

No Holds Barred

How often do we let ourselves speak? Truly speak?

I don’t just mean having the courage to pipe up when we’re taking a stand for something or admitting an emotion. 

I’m talking about letting our hearts talk to us without holding back. mean conversing with the soul in a way that is free and open and attentive.

No holds barred. Anything and everything free to flow and emerge and just come out.

Out of the darkness stuffed with all our best ideas.

Out of the space chock-full with our desires and visions and abilities.

Out of the knowledge that we are bright enough to do whatever we want to do and we deserve to shine, goddammit.

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How I Want It All to Feel

I spent some time last night trawling through Danielle LaPorte‘s archive for 2009. Being at a loose end for the evening and not in the mood to study or write, I figured I’d soak up the beauty of her words and marvel at her knowledge.

One post in particular made me reach for my journal and pour my heart out. plan to feel was a call to do exactly that: feel. How do you want to feel? What do you want to feel? I wrote the following in a matter of seconds as it became clear to me that I wanted to feel:

Connected. Content. Full. Succulent. Ripe. Blissed-out. Delicious. Magnificent. Sharp. Energised. Meaningful. An unfurling of my desires. Budding, growing. Branching out and living straight from my gut. Light from my core. Wind in my bones. Continue reading

Pull the Lever

via Amber White’s post

There are times when life is like a freight train hurtling along at full speed, keeping us rushed off our feet and leaving us frantic. We feel things are out of control and are easily overwhelmed or discouraged by challenges that seem impossible to handle or overcome.

Psst. That’s your cue to pull your emergency lever.

You are always in the driver’s seat. You decide exactly how much you let in and how much you keep out. You run the show. You ARE the boss. Continue reading

Roots of Peace

Prayer. Meditation. Mindful communication. Pathways to peace.

Love. Kindness. Understanding. Sprouts of peace.

Strength. Resilience. Faith. Pillars of peace.

Light. Clarity. Insight. Fruits of peace.

Stillness. Focus. Deep breaths. Seeds of peace.

What’s contributing to your peace today? What’s taking away from it?

via Teresa’s post

Burn that Boat!

Every week or so, Danielle LaPorte asks a Burning Question designed to make you stop and think: “Why am I doing this? Why do I want that? What will happen if I don’t do that?”

I’m a bit late because this is last week’s question (ahem), but anyway here it is:

what boat do you need to burn? a testimony to your future

To tell the truth, I think a part of me was resisting writing this post. Because the question went straight for my solar plexus. Because it smacked me upside the head and said “Otiti, you HAVE to stop doing this!”, then gathered me in for a hug and promised it would be OK. Notice how long it’s taking me to say what damn boat I’m burning?

(Inhale). Here goes.

I’m burning the boat of needing. I’m burning the boat of need. I’m turning into ash the concept that I need x to do y before I can be happy and/or fulfilled.

I need you to love me so I can validate my self-worth.

I need you to cut me some slack so I can feel better about myself.

I need to drop a dress size or two so I can feel really sexy.

Not anymore.

I choose to love me as I am and know my self-worth is immeasurable.

I choose to show up and do the work. No excuses. No handicaps.

I choose to be foxy right now, dammit, because there’s no such thing as the perfect weight or figure for all women; there’s only the perfect weight for me.

Need is an insidious thing. It swallows your power and makes you dependent on external factors + influences to be on top of your game. Ironically, it’s also a safe zone because you know exactly what you’ll get when you do certain things. Only problem is, it’s never really enough, is it? You’ll always need more. And more. And more.

Clutching need like a life raft ends today. It ends here. It ends now.

I need nothing. I have everything.

And you? What boat are you gonna burn?

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Why Write?

Because there’s a message, a yearning, a calling.

Because there is truth bursting to be said, threatening to make my head implode if I don’t share it NOW.

Because the flow of of words and images becomes a tidal wave that sweeps my core and makes my skin tingle.

Because it’s more important to put your voice out there than to stay silent yet crying out for expression.

I write to nourish my soul and free my spirit.

You write to speak your truth and share your passion.

We write to voice our desires and meet our destinies.

We write to teach each other and learn from one another; to enrich our existence and touch our hearts; to feel with clarity pure and true.

We write to run with the urge to create, to fashion, to explore; to travel the cosmos and drink the light that is ours for the taking.

Why write?

Because the thoughts will keep circling until I commit them to screen and paper, until I forget about what people will say and focus on what I say.

I choose clarity.

I choose light.

I choose the phoenix reborn again and again as the words of my soul flow forth from my core and out through my fingertips.

I choose connection, interaction, community.

I choose to weave my share into the Universal tapestry; to add my voice to the annals of humanity; to sing the beauty that is soul-fed expression.

I choose to share my truth and my yearning, my hope and my journey, my purpose and my vision.

Won’t you join me? :)

via this post

NB: Some of my friends seem to think I ask them to read my blog so they can tell me how well I write. Nothing could be further from the truth. I ask in the hope that we can connect through my posts, start an interaction for our mutual benefit, and build a supportive community that nurtures each and every one of its members.