Personal Portrait

I want to know that I lived. That I was brave enough to love hard and strong, unabashedly and unreservedly. I want to know that I went with my gut & was free to dream, to hope, to reach for the stars.

I want to know that I found my talent and drew it forth, that my well of potential did not go untapped. I want to live every minute, every second, safe only in the ability to wring every last drop of bliss available in each moment.

I want to know that I chased after greatness and waited for nothing to come to me. I want to know that I gave myself every opportunity, every chance to be me, to be myself. I want to live in the moment, here and now, unhampered by the past & not crippled by expectations of the future.

I want to know that every breath, every moment, was treasured and appreciated. I want to know that I can laugh at myself and forgive my mistakes; that I can work over a situation and be done with it for good and not continuously obsess over what went wrong or why it did.

I want to know that I listened to my heart and went where it took me, unafraid of what people think or what they would say. I want to know that I am ALIVE, that I am living for me and not putting myself in situations that would later make me ask ‘What if?’

What if I had taken that chance? What if I had dated that guy, bought that dress, gone to that party? I want to know that I live a life free of ‘what-ifs’.

It’s easy to spend so much time planning & wishing that one actually does very little “doing”; every moment accounted for, every time frame carrying its own set of expectations.

It’s not so easy, though, to have a general plan and leave the specifics up to fate. It’s not so easy to discover them along the way as opposed to map them out right from the start. It’s even harder to stop oneself from wanting to know all the answers NOW, to be content with getting a few at a time and not pushing for everything at once.

I want to know that I was patient with myself, that I accepted the importance of moving forward with feasible steps, that I didn’t try to achieve everything all at once and end up with nothing at all.

I want to know that I can be gentle with myself. I want to be free. I want to give myself permission to be. Me. True to my spirit and in tune with my soul.

The Door of Life

I sat at the Door of Life
Spent from my struggle to reach it
Thought back on the blood and strife
Vowed to go on long as I was fit

I swayed at the Door of Life
Unsteady on my shaky feet
The threshold beckoned with lute and fife
Still I paused, hesitant my fate to meet

I stood at the Door of Life
Firm in my heart to endure
Passed through with expectations rife
And found that Life was pure.

Balance Is The Key

Balance. Inner balance, outer balance . . . these are things we strive for without even being aware of our end-goals. In our minds, it’s a nebulous something we just gotta have. I have come to realise that balance is the key to everything. It encourages finding your way to that special place where everything is as it ought to be. We all come across people who seem to have everything we want: dream jobs, dream houses, dream relationships, dream clothes, and so much more.

Sometimes we only see a mirage, a front to mask whatever’s really going down in their lives. Other times though, it is genuine. They do have their act together, and that is what draws us to them. Whilst I won’t profess to know the magic formulae for balance in all aspects of life, I do know, or rather think I know, that true balance comes from within.

 Inner peace. Think about it. When you are at peace with yourself, you can take on anything that comes your way, overcome obstacles, and tackle tricky situations. But when your inner compass is out of whack, everything seems to go to pot: you are irritable, nothing is going the way you want it to, you know something is missing but you remain unsure what it is . . . I could go on indefinitely but I think you get my drift.

So how do you get this inner peace, find your balance, become part of the elite who have it all? Simple.

Look inside yourself. Examine your priorities, your choices, your habits, and your lifestyle. What are the things that bring you joy and are positive? What is holding you back from tapping into your full potential? In other words, identify the good, the bad, and the ugly. Change whatever is getting you down. Take affirmative action. Find what works for you and go for it. Life is short, my friends, let’s get the best out of it while we can.

Be bold, be exotic, be fabulous, but most importantly, be you.