Cad Fad

You bought into it
Games lies deceit and tears
Brought in what just couldn’t fit
Now I’m choking on my fears

Caught up in a deadly game
Always at odds, hacking away our frame
No time to spare and reflect
Figure out why we can’t even connect

Cad fad got you out and tripping
Fronting like you don’t see the venom dripping
Twisting the knife every move you make
This once was real, now it’s all fake.

Decide

You hate me when I’m here
Want me when I’m gone
Pull me in, push me away
The joy we once had is now grey

Claim I don’t love you
Say I’m not who you want or need
So leave me to find someone warm and true
But you won’t let go ’cause of your greed

You want it all, the world at your feet
I am a precious woman, not some symbol or meat
You cannot cage me, make me a possession
I am more than that, free of your oppression.

The Door of Life

I sat at the Door of Life
Spent from my struggle to reach it
Thought back on the blood and strife
Vowed to go on long as I was fit

I swayed at the Door of Life
Unsteady on my shaky feet
The threshold beckoned with lute and fife
Still I paused, hesitant my fate to meet

I stood at the Door of Life
Firm in my heart to endure
Passed through with expectations rife
And found that Life was pure.

Island

Stuck on an island
Though surrounded by people
Barely hanging by a strand
My being is feeble

Harsh reality buffeting, making crystal clear
There’s no comfort to soothe me here
Searching for a reason, some explanation
Anything to justify such lasting isolation

“This is not my life by choice!”
I cry; but I have no voice
Banished down a seldom-travelled path
Emptiness swallowing all emotion, even wrath.

When

When I’m cold and lonely
And can’t find the strength to see the sun
I need you to warm me
Show me my despair can be gone

When I’m lost and tired
 Slumped on the wayside
Lift me up; I’ll know you tried
Know you cared enough to soothe wounded pride

When I reach out to you
And ask for a helping hand
I don’t need you to have the answers
I just need you to understand.

I Live On

I live on.

I live on in your memory.

I live on in your veins, in your blood.

I live on in your principles.

I live on in your thoughts.

I live on in your prayers.

I live on in your love.

I live on in my love for you.

I live on, and I am with you always.

I Live On.

For those who have lost someone close, someone special, someone loved. They live on, and they live in you.

Fade Out

Waning under this deathly hold
Yielding to lack of affection, turning cold
Failing to meet society’s expectations
Caught in a web of many representations

Always on the outside trying to fit in
Slamming against brick walls erected from within
Constantly gathering pieces of shattered hopes
Clumsily trying to walk life’s tightropes.